Letter to a new friend

Hello Janis

After reading your initial post it seems clear to me that you are experiencing the effects of your own personal awakening. I would expect that all Indigos go though similar experiences, although each Indigos’ awakening will be unique. During my initial awakening, (many, many moons ago) I too experienced moments of mind blowing euphoria and then moments of complete and utter despair as I processed the dropping of my old fragmented and limiting persona and began the slow and painstaking processes of adopting a new, expanded and more complete identity. This is not an easy processes but is one that will inevitably set you free.

Many of the people I took this journey with were sons, daughters, fathers, mothers, some within family structures, some with no biological family ties what-so ever. All of us were in some sort of relationship and usually within this family structure we were the only individuals on this awakening path. Whatever situation we found ourselves in, one thing was certain. This was an individual journey and many of our family members surrounding us, during these initial stages just simply could not understand what we were going through. It is good that you at least found this group (there are many more out there) that you can at least ask for guidance or just to talk with someone. At some point on your path you will not need this assistance as you continue to press forward within the processes of redefining who and what you are. You will eventually create this new Identity from your very own experiences that life and your heartfelt searching will simply bring to you. My Elder would often tell me “Goha, do not be afraid to make many mistakes on your path for each Mis-take will simply lead you to making different choices”. I am better at easing up on myself but even after 30 years I still find myself yearning for perfection. We are all perfect, right now, in our own imperfections…

The hard part with this initial awakening processes was recognizing when a particular relationship no longer provided any further value to us. Some left their husbands, some left families that simply could not understand what they were going though. Many thought we had joined some cult and would meet our own destruction at the end of a grape flavored Kool Aid drink. In each instance when one of us met this unavoidable nexus point – Should I stay and continue to spiritually unfold within my current relationship or should I leave family members behind in my journey towards discovering my Soul Identity – when the decision was to made to stay within the family structure and still try to move forward on their journeys then their journey was cut short for they placed other family members before their own spiritual fulfillment. They eventually became resentful towards the family members they stayed with and unfortunately played the guilt-ridden game of “what if…?”

Another saying my Elder would often tell me was “Goha, never, ever let anyone stand between you and the sun”. There were some who took this advise and left husbands some left wives. Some left whole family members behind in their forward moving search for this new identity they new in their gut they would someday become. It takes a very special type of person to do this; one with an unusual amount of courage. Many will not have the ability to overcome the fear of which at times literally seems like “losing ones mind” for that is very much what we experienced when we awakened on our Spiritual Paths. As Neal Donald Walsh puts it you have to be “out of your mind’ literally in order for you to be able to see the Devine Truth. For those who do have this courage the rewards are uncountable. A silver lining here in some cases was that moving away from destructive relationships provided the needed understandings where further down the road, they managed to heal these relationships. Nothing is ever lost forever.

I get so excited when you talk of your explorations with such passion. Going Vegan, Reading EVERYTHING, Judging nothing, Allowing everything to have its place, is all part of the processes.

So many people say “follow the heart” and yet so many people rarely do. Its as if they are simply mouthing the words they have heard that sounded good but without understanding just what this means. Beloved, if it was easy mankind would have ascended long ago. It is not easy to trust the heart for it will always seem diametrically opposed to what your ego with its mind child games would have you believe. Trust what comes to you in mediation or in moments of pensive thoughtfulness, for these are the whisperings of your true Self, your Christ Consciousness if you will. It was once asked what exactly is this Christ Consciousness. This is the response that made sense to me; The separated self or the ego does not learn. Even when the ego has taken many courses and received many teachings, the ego has not learned but has merely become threatened. If the ego cannot learn and your All Knowing Spirit does not need to learn what It already knows, then for whom are all the self help courses really for? They are for the Still Small Voice that you hear whispering in your ear in your silent, still moments. It is the stirring of your heart at the sight of a kitten reaching out to you for love. What is this part of you that with ever growing passion, yearns to learn? This is the Christ Consciousness within you. In the beginning It’s voice is small and frail, easily overcome by a frightened ego but with consistent, persistent practice you will strengthen this “still small voice” your Christ Consciousness and eventually it will drown out the raging objections of the ego. More and more you will have moments of peace effectively rendered by your Christ Consciousness.

Some have mentioned meditation as a means of grounding. This can be very good for some people. Stilling the mind can lead to the still small voice but for me when I was having these moments of great confusion, meditating, I believed at the time, was simply not possible when thoughts raced thought my mind with the force of an avalanche. What eventually lead me to this inner peace of mind where I could make my choices from love and not from fear was Breath Therapy or what I call Chakra Breathing. Many have used another form of breath work called Rebirthing. Always the idea is to massively oxygenate the physical body. Usually these sessions take anywhere from and hour to and hour and a half. You may want to find a breather worker where you live if you choose to go down this road.

Your dreams are very important. One of the tricks my Elder taught us when trying to interpret dreams is understanding that everything in the dream is you. The monkey is you, the giraffe is you as well as the elephant. You are correct that water symbolizes emotion, so now the trick is in understanding what the animal elements in your dream represent. So my question to you is: What does the Monkey mean to you? When you think of a giraffe, what does it mean to you? What does the elephant mean to you for they are all extensions of how you see yourself. That there is a part of you that is dealing with this flood, this emotional tsunami, is easily recognized when you look at what is currently happing in your life. That you see yourself as Savior seems to be a cry from yourself to yourself in recognition of the fact that you truly are magnificent, a divine child of God. That it is time for you to believe in this magnificence and that you are truly worthy of receiving the love you so want to give.

If kittens grow up to cats, and puppies grow up to be dogs, what do children of God grow up to be?

What you give you will receive in truth. What you do not receive is a measure of what you withhold from others.

In your heart, you have all that you need.


aka ‘Goha’


Regarding Earths Pyaramids

Here is a response I wrote back to someone who wanted to know who built the Great Pyramid of Giza. Posted on the Indigo Society Form. 20JAN2013.

Hello AmentiHall
I love the name reference to “Halls of Amenti” it being the name given to Earths Primary Templar System with 12 Primary Star Gates. However, I would use caution if you wish to use these gates for transit at this time as many of them have been compromised and no longer lead to ascending systems but rather to descending systems using unnatural black hole technologies. Our Planetary Templar system has always been the coveted ‘Prize’ for all Fallen Angelic Races like the Annunaki and the Dracos. The story here is huge and would require many, many threads to reveal.

Now I don’t know who killed JFK but here, many speculate that he was killed for threatening to expose what he knew of the “service to self” Alien agenda and their entanglement with the ruling governments of this planet. Some have even gone so far as to suggest that Marilyn Monroe was also killed for the same reason and that she obtained this info from JFK himself. All still speculation but curious none the less.

OK so here is something to consider regarding Earths’ Pyramids.

The Pyramid structure is the Architectural Signature and scientific achievement of the Annunaki.

The story of the Annunaki is a long and complicated one. In a previous post I indicated that the Annunaki were created as an avenger race out to destroy the Angelic Human race on earth. Well generally speaking this is the case, however, like you find in the Human race that there are good Humans and then there are not so good Humans. So it is the same with the Annunaki. There are some Annunaki who do see the value and honour the Divine purpose of the Angelic Human race. (Very short synopsis) the Angelic Human race was created as a means to restore a very damaged Universal Time Matrix, and to restore a partially fallen milky way galaxy. There was waring going on in the Heavens (think upper dimensional spectrum) well before the Angelic Humans appeared on the scene. Angelic Humans were a gift to all Fallen Angelic ET Races that no longer had their ascension codes intact within their Genome. So how this worked was a particular Fallen Angelic race would petition Earths/Angelic Humans’ Guardian ET races for “Bio-Regenesis”. A portion of the fallen ET race would evolve on their home planet and take their evolution as far as their damaged planet’s templar would allow. They then would incarnate into Angelic Human form and because we had the full 12 Strand Diamond Sun DNA configuration with full ascension codes intact, they could pick up their missing ascension codes and bring this back to their planet in order to assist their “trapped” race obtain the missing ascension codes in order to continue their evolution beyond the time matrix itself.

Portions of the Annunaki race have made many contractual agreements at various times for “Bio-Regenesis” and have broken theses agreements many, many times. It was during one particular period where the portion of the Annunaki who came in on a bio-regenesis contract encountered mush resistance from the Annunaki who still wanted to destroy the Human race. About 48,500 years ago the Sirian Council (Member of the Guardian Alliance) instructed the Annunaki who were here on Earth in Human form on a Bio-Regenesis contract to make a direct show of power in Egypt and Atlantis. This first structure that they built was the Sphinx. Its original form contained the head of an Annunaki Warrior on the body of a lion-like structure. The lions body was in honour of a race line called the Leonines. The Annunaki revered them as God-Like and it was the Leonines who were instrumental in the early foundations of the Annunaki Culture. The sphinx was built over the portal to Inner Earth which was also liked to the Ark of the Covenant Portal Passage. It was built about 48,459 years ago (46,459 BC).

Pyramid of Giza

The great Pyramid of Giza, the Cheops pyramid was created a short time after the sphinx still around 46,459 BC. It was created directly over the Ark of the Covenant Portal Passage and the Heart Chakra of the Earth Which is why the Pyramid of Giza is Earths Planetary Star Gate number 4. This structure was reconstructed and repaired on numerous occasions most recently about 12,500 years ago (10,500 BC) then again about 11,000 years ago (9,000 BC). The Pyramid was not constructed as a burial tomb, although later is was used as such, but the primary purpose of the Great Pyramid of Giza was to fortify the Ark of the Covenant Portal Passage and to serve as an interdimensional teleporation centre. 

MikeCriss Blog - Zecharia Sitchin - Gli Annunaki

MikeCriss Blog – Zecharia Sitchin – Gli Annunaki (Photo credit: mikecrissflick)

I find it ironic that in Zecharia Sitchins’ work he suggests that because it only took (I believe he quoted 20 years) to build the Pyramid of Giza, that to move these enormous blocks by hand would have taken the builders much longer to build so he summarily concluded was that they must have had some sort of technology we do not posses today that would have assisted them in moving these enormous  blocks into place much easier and quicker. Yes, there was technology that was used in the original creation of the pyramid but by the time of the last rebuilding (9,000 BC) our planets Merkaba had been severely damaged by the final sinking of Atlantis in 9558 BC. With the destruction of Atlantis our planets’ rotational tilt was moved it out of alinement with the Alcyone Spiral and second, the great energy generating crystals on the oceans floor that were placed there by Guardian ET races was dredged and removed from the planet. These great crystals that provided the interdimensional energy that powered the Ankhs with their ability to reverse gravitational pull on objects was no longer available so the rebuilding of the Giza pyramid was done by hand manually. It only took the 20 years because it was not built from scratch but rather only repaired.

Ron Paul, an imperfect man and yet for some, the Hope of the world.

In a recent discussion with a friend of mine the issue of Ron Paul’s homophobia came up which subsequently questioned his  suitability to run for the highest office in the USA, the presidency. Here is how I responded.

Well Kari you are right in that he (Ron Paul) has and still displays a homophobic attitude. If what I hear of his past stand on Homophobia and racism is completely true and not the distortion efforts of a smear campaign, then I see his position has at least softened over the years. A soft stand for example is where a Christian will tell you they love you and respect you and will even acknowledge your freedom to do exactly as you please so long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. However, they will still continue to pray for you and your salvation.  That to me is a soft stand. Is it completely non judgmental? No, but is still something that can be worked with and can still evolve.

I also see that there are no current presidential hopefuls that are without major blemish themselves. Our whole world is the midst of a battle between the light and the dark. Some say a final battle for the soul. (Sounds melodramatic I know). But I believe today that every human on the planet is being asked to take a stand and be counted. I truly believe at this point that Ron Pauls’ platform of limited, non-interventionist government, his anti war stand and above all, his dedication towards the concept of freedom for all, is preferable in every way to every other candidate that is currently running.

All other candidates all want to go to war as a means of tackling the unresolvable deficit and all are leaning towards a One World Government that is by necessity, designed to eliminating all of your freedoms. Thus ending with making 97% of the worlds populations slaves to a fascist, socialist form of one world government run by and for the betterment of only a very few a the top.

I look at this and say which is better for humanities future and which is easier to work with if we are to continue to evolve as a species.

Here is an interesting note. We can all agree for example that Lincoln during the Civil War with his Emancipation Proclamation helped to abolish slavery in the USA. I am sure it would surprise you to discover that it was never his intent to do so. The war at the time was going badly for Lincoln. He was losing thousands of men who would not sign up for a second tour of duty. Money was dwindling, supplies were short and he recognized that what was needed was an idea that would galvanize all of these men back to the battlefield. He used the idea of freeing the slaves only because it held a singular purpose of continuing to fight this war. A war that originally was never about freeing the slaves, but was yet again over money and power.

Now if Lincoln had not won this war, think about how the USA would have developed and what it would look like today. Was Lincoln the ‘perfect president’? No, but through circumstance he ended up changing the whole world for the better.

I believe that Ron Paul’s platform (although not perfect) is still the best platform out there today that can at least give citizens of the USA and the rest of the world a fighting chance at making it through these pivotal, difficult and changing times upon us. For me, his one greatest, defining principle is one of freedom. For without freedom and the push towards self-sovereign statehood for all people this one world order concept will fall far short of becoming what could be the greatest self governing design that that man has ever created. A synocracy based on a self-regulating, self-governing, self-sovereign peoples.

Does he personally recognize this potential out come. I don’t think so. But like Lincoln, Ron Paul will be written of in history books as one of the greatest American’s the USA has ever known.

Neale Donald Walsh said in his book  “Communion with God”;

A book I believe is a must for any one that is interesting in seeing humanities’ continuing evolution.

“Dream of a world in which freedom becomes the highest expression of Life, in which no one who claims to love another seeks to restrict another, and in which all are allowed to express the glory of their being in measure full and true.

 Dream of a world in which judgment is never again visited by one upon another, in which conditions are never again laid down before love is offered, and in which fear is never again seen as a means of respect.

There are those who see things as they are and say “Why?” And there are those who dream of things that never were and say “Why Not?”

Now what do you say?”

My Way to Financial Freedom!

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Think success, act success, live success, have success.


The largest transfer of wealth the world has ever seen is taking place right now.

Are you positioning yourself to be part of it?

“Michael Maloney “

What an outrageous statement! How could this be? What was this man talking about?

It was early December 2011 and I had been mulling over the quarterly results on my RRSP company partnership plan realizing that an early retirement was definitely out of the question. My investments had been declining now for a number of years and at this rate I would have to work until I was 85 before I could possibly see my “golden years” actually happening. Heck, I might never be able to afford to retire at this rate…

So this mans’ outrageous statement caught my attention for sure! I decided to sign up for Mike Dillards’ webinar on Dec 10th.  Mike was an associate of  Michael Maloney and was basically claiming the same outrageous claims that Michael Maloney was making. The 10th was also an auspicious day as the lunar eclipse was to occur on this date. I would see for myself what this man had to say. The webinar was free so I had nothing to loose and a whole lot of new insights to gain. Anyway, Grandmother Pa’Ris’ha had said to do something of significance on this day in order to more clearly define and create a future path for ourselves. So what better way to do so than by attending a prosperity seminar?

On the day this webinar was to occur, my excitement grew and even though I had gone early to the site I still could not log in until the appointed time. “Be patient”, I told myself.

To be honest I had not been this excited for quite some time now. While listening to Mike Dillard’s webinar, I was so impressed with his easy to listen too approach that upon completion of the webinar I signed up to become part of his recently created web-group called The Elevation Group. Mike said he felt it was his duty as well as a heart felt obligation to let as many of the middle class know what I am about to tell you now before the middle class is completed whiped out in the next inevitable world monetary currency change.

Now, before I go further let me state here and now that I am not a Financial Advisor. All I am sharing with you is what I am doing with the information I have been given. I am just at the beginning of my financial education so don’t take anything I say and go out invest. If anything, my only hope is that my words might motivate and move you to conduct your own research. Everyone deserves to give themselves a sound financial education.

A Short History Lesson

Gone are the days when we were told “Go to college, get a good job, stay out of debt and invest in a diversified portfolio of stocks, bonds and a good set of mutual funds”. This advice is sorely out dated  and no longer applies to today’s changing world financial situation. In the USA people are loosing their homes, in the USA, 401K’s are being whiped out, unemployment is skyrocketing everywhere and all we hear these days is talk of heading into another Great Depression. To offset this depressing situation my understanding is that wealth, like energy, cannot be destroyed. It can only shift from one person to the next. But before I go into how to position yourself to have this wealth come to you, I want to share a brief story on how we got to where we are today.

This short history lesson of how the world got to be where we are today started in 1913 when the Federal Reserve was created. Let me tell you here and now that the Federal Reserve is not American. It is not a Bank. It has no “reserves”, and is controlled by some of the richest and politically influential families in the world. It has the power to created money out of thin air and is directly opposed by the designers of your great constitution.

Then in 1944, the Bretton Woods Agreement was made. Here, this international currency agreement created the World Bank and the International Monetary Fund (IMF). This agreement replicated the Federal Reserve System globally and in effect installed the US dollar as the reserve currency of the world. Now all international monetary exchanges would be conducted in US dollars. At this time, the US dollar itself was still backed by gold, however, during the economic boom that was to follow the Breton Woods agreement, the US economy shot through the roof. The US was buying and importing hung amounts of the worlds goods. Life was good! The US was shipping out Gold to cover this debt.

In 1971, however, President Nixon realized that the US would shortly be incapable of covering the increasing debt because the US Gold supply was decreasing faster than it could be replaced. President Nixon did something here that would alter the course of history forever and set the whole world hurtling towards an inevitable world wide financial crash. He disconnected the US dollar from being backed by gold. Now the US dollar, still considered “money” was officially  turned into Fiat Currency as was the rest of the worlds currencies because of the Breton Woods agreement.

Those tens, twenties, fifty’s etc, that everyone still thinks of as money is simply  “receipts” for payment due. It is simply Fiat Currency. This is what we trade with and what we pay with when items are purchased. This is not money but is now simply what some people call monopoly money or wheelbarrle money. When you look at a 100 dollar bill, is the paper its printed on worth 100 dollars? I don’t think so. Now all Centrals Banks in the world including the Federal Reseve could print massive amounts of currency out of thin air none of which was/is backed by gold.

Bailouts were now becoming part of every day life. First we saw million dollar bailouts in the 70’s and 80’s then came billion dollar bailouts in the 90’s and now today we are seeing trillion dollar bailouts. Each time a bailout occurs this “funny money” floods the system and debases the purchasing power of the dollar. This cannot go on indefinitely before the whole system implodes upon itself which is about where we are today. This time however it’s not just the USA that is experiencing problems similar to those seen during the Great Depression but the whole world is now knee deep in this struggle with this uncontrollable monster.

Each time these bailouts occur the purchasing power or value of the dollar declines, inflation occurs , manipulation of interest rates are attempted in order to try and fix the problem only to start the cycle all over again in a never ending, spiralling cycle of currency debasement. All the while that this is happening something else is taking place that is very interesting. The price of Gold and Silver begin to rise in response to the declining dollar. If and when hyper-infaltion happens and the Federal Reserve cannot print funny money fast enough to counter inflation, something happens that has always happed, which can be seen in over 2,000 years of history. Public confidence in the currency evaporates and a mad rush to acquire gold and silver, the only thing that has stood the test of time proving itself to be real money. Michael Maloney, author of  “Guide to Investing in Gold and Silver” says if everyone in the world were to own silver today each person would have less that one fourteenth of an once, and if the gold standard were to be implemented in the USA today gold would reach over $20,000 an ounce just to balance your 15 trillion dollar deficit. However, as I said earlier the whole world is playing ball this time so when this mad rush towards buying gold and silver happens in responce to this lack of confidenc in the dollar, the price of precious metals and in particular gold and silver will skyrocket like nothing we’ve ever witnessed in human history before. The largest transfer of wealth the world has ever seen will be complete.

A thought about inflation:

You may have heard the concept that adding additional cash to the economy causes inflation. It took me a while to understand how this is. Here is a simple explanation that I have come up with. Let us say we have 100 people show up at an auction. Now each person has, lets say, $20,000.00 each to bid with at the auction. So now we have a set amount of items plus a set amount of cash being spent. At this point everything is stable and all can compete fairly in the auction. Now lets say that 50 of the 100 people suddenly all get a win fall of $100,000.00 each on the day before the auction. So now at this auction 50% of the people attending have more cash to bid with. The number of items at the auction has not increased, only the amount of cash. So when bidding starts the people with this additional cash on hand will most likely spend this additional cash simply because they can and they want the item they are bidding on so they will push the bidding price higher than it would normally be. Heaven help those who did not win this extra cash for they will most likely loose out big time. More money in fewer hands will naturaly push up the cost of all things. This is how inflation works and how inflation hurts the middle and lower income makers.

When I understood what this meant, I immediately began to purchase silver. Why silver and not gold? I’ll explain this in my next blog.


Mike Dillar web site: The Elevation Group     http://theelevationgroup.net/

Guide to Investing in Gold and Silver: author, Michael Malony part of Robert Kiyosaki’s “Rich Dad’s Advisors” series of books.       https://goldsilver.com/

Rich Dad’s Conspiracy of the Rich: The 8 New Rules of  Money: by Robert Kiyosaki.

The Creature from Jekyll Island:  A second Look at the Federal Reserve:  by Edward Griffin

Hope Heals All

“Embrace oneness by seeing yourself in everyone you encounter.

When we open ourselves to truth we are liberated!”

Grandmother Pa’Ris’Ha

“Devote today to something so daring even you can’t believe your doing it”

Oprah Winfrey

“With transparency comes a degree of freedom unfathomable to those still trapped in secrecy.”

Ron Mayer

Hope can heal all.

I was just finishing lunch at home and I had 20 minutes to get back to school to catch my 1:00 o’clock afternoon math class.

“Mom, I gota go or I’ll be late”, a said as I pushed my half eaten sandwich away from me.

“But you haven’t finished”, she said to my back as I grabbed an apple from the fruit basket.

“I’m not very hungry right now. I’ll eat this later.”

I paused on the porch to take in the moment. The clouds were coming in fast and dark and ominous. As I looked out onto our back yard, I could hear the sound of the wind as it blew through the trees and the trees began to sing. I could smell the coming rain that came heavy through the screen door. I had always felt refuge in arms of nature.

Reluctantly breaking my melancholy moment, I pulled my coat tighter around me and uttered a sigh as I stepped off the porch and headed off to school.

I was deep in thought about the bullying, name calling and physical abuse I had just received the day before from Harold Borkowski (not his real name). This one was the most painful episode yet. I could still feel my heart blistering from that humiliating attack. “At least you can’t see the bruises” I thought to myself. Harold could make ‘Deliverance’ look like a back yard picnic.

All through that last year in high school, I had endured constant taunting and jeering from many of my piers about my preferred persuasion. Even the teachers, on the rare occasion where they did witnessed the bullying, would always manage to turn a blind eye and let it slide. There was no word for it back then, which made it all the more frightening because there was no one I could talk to intelligently about it, so I shamefully buried it as best I could. I suddenly felt a flash of rage that I should even be made to feeling shame, oblivious to the deep scaring it was leaving inside.

This was the last month before my graduation. If I could only just get through these last few weeks, summer would be here and I could spend it quietly and anonymously at our cottage. Summer there was always good and yet I could hardly wait for the fall when I could finally get out of this town and head off to college where no one would know me. I would start off fresh.

I could only hope that the world outside this town would be infinitely kinder…

The lightning flashed and a moment later followed it with a clap of thunder. I picked up my pace.

Steps leading to school.

Steps leading to school.

There was a set of 9 flights of stairs that lead down into the “pit” where our high school was built. As I began my decent I noticed a lone figure sitting at the very bottom. I was only a few steps away, when I noticed that it was Harold Borkowski. He was hunched over, his face in his hands and his shoulders were heaving up and down obviously in distress.

What I did next surprised me. Normally, most people who had endured so much paid from someone like Harold would have simply walk right past him and not say a word. However, my empathic nature instantly had me feeling his pain and as I approached, I sat down next to him on the bottom step. I paused a moment then gently asked him, “Are you ok? Is there anything I can do to help?”

In that instant a look of shock and bewilderment came flooding into his eyes. I could tell he was thinking that I was the last person in the world that he would have expected sympathy from, especially after the way he had been treating me.

His eyes were cold as steel as he challenged my sincerity. My gaze never faltered. A moment later the hardness in his eyes turned to puzzlement and as he turned away, he sighed, “No, there’s nothing anyone can do.”

“I’m sorry,” I said. Moments passed as we both stared straight head sitting next to each other in silence.

“I’ll just leave you be then” and I got up and continued on down the path towards the school.

I was shaking inside. I could not believe what I had just done. It felt wonderful! I was free. Through that sudden unexpected act of compassion, I had gained back my personal power and restored some of that self respect that had been slowly eroding over the last painful year.

You know I believe just that one small act of kindness changed Harold. For in that final month before graduation he never once bullied me again. Yes, perhaps something in him had changed. More importantly, I saw my whole world change in that moment as I demonstrated to myself a capacity to love that seemed well beyond my years. In that moment I realized that with transparency comes a degree of freedom unfathomable to those still trapped in secrecy.

Later, Grandmother would come to refer to these elevating moments in ones life as “Nuwati”.  A Cherokee word which has many meanings: “the Medicine Way,” “one of being as God is,” “universal power and connectedness,” “One with the All,” “the chosen and gifted”. All of these meanings describe what “Nuwati” is; however, I have come to simply understand it as “Love in action”.

Even then, before I had ever met Grandmother, I knew that there was something very different about me. Something most people could not quite understand. This difference would now set me on a path of destiny most could not even fathom.

That summer was one of the best summers that I can recall. And even as it ended and I began to prepare to leave home for college, I remembered thinking, “Even if the world outside my town ends up being just as hate-filled towards me as these last few years have been, at least I now know I will survive.”

Hope was still alive.

Song sung by: Idina Menzel


This is a story of a bird with no wings.

It’s certain that it can fly.

Sailing on love, into the headwinds.

Forcing it’s way by-and-by.

If only we were as strong as this bird

Our spirit would never die.

What do we name it?

Hope is the right word.

Hope is the bravest most beautiful bird in the sky.

Hope is a bird that flys higher than others.

And keeps all our dreams alive.

Free of all doubt, perfectly fearless.

Fed by it’s will to survive.

Imagine ourselves becoming this bird

We can when we dare to try.

See ourselves flying, over the mountain.

Hope is the bravest most beautiful bird in the sky.

Only hope can light the way.

Only hope can heal the heart.

Only hope can keep the clouds from hiding the moon & the stars.

If only we were as strong as this bird.

Our spirit would never die.

What do we call it? Only one word.

Hope is the bravest most beautiful  bird.

Hope is the bravest most beautiful bird in the sky.

Only hope can light the way.

Only hope can heal the heart.

Only hope can keep the clouds from hiding the moon & the stars.

This was the story of a bird without wings.

And rose above everything.

Never once giving up.



Am I Ready?

Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha

It wasn’t until July of 1987 that I saw Grandmother Pa’Ris’Ha again. Since that time of our first encounter, she was never far from my mind. I would be at work and would be having a particularly difficult moment and her face would simply appear in my mind, a warmth and peace would flow though me and my world would be all right again.

It surprised me that the image of someone I had just met once before, could have such an impact on me. Some time later when I asked her about  this she’d smiled and say to me “Goha we are ‘inner-connected’ and I am always with you”.

During those early years revelation came easily and frequently.  In my still moments, I would experience them like little packets of intelligent light that, when touched, would explode into conscious realization with the understanding that what I had just observed in my minds eye was an absolute truth for me. And yet I had no proof to justify such assuredness. Although these increasingly frequent moments were filled with an ecstasy I had never felt before, I could not ignore the growing concern that, here again, I was experiencing an event that no one else around me was experiencing. I had no one to tell me what was happening to me.

So after my first meeting with Grandmother, I knew things had to change in my life. I no longer felt satisfied with just reading books that I could not interact with in real time. What I needed was a living, breathing mentor. Thats when I believe I brought Grandmother completely into my life.

Like the Buddhist proverb saying that goes; “When the student is ready, the Master will appear”.

I was ready!


2012, Ascension and ET’s: What’s this all about anyway!

DECEMBER 12, 2012

A simple date, but  a date that is gaining a great deal of attention these days. Will this date bring on the end of the world? Or will we see a new beginning; the end of one chapter in the story of the Human Race and the beginning of a new one. I, and many others prefer to see it as Grandmother Pa’Ris’ha recently put it. “The world is not ending, it is transforming!” Many Mayan Elders also see it this way with the completion of a very long cycle and the start of a new one, thus an ending of their calendars long count which will occur on this date.

With movies like “2012” and TV programs focusing on negative end of day prophesies like those of Nostrodamus and even the Bibles’ Book of Revelations and its’ depiction of the destruction of earth and its people in the final battle of armageddon, increasing numbers of people everywhere have heard of this date and are awaiting its arrival with far too much trepidation. This to me is so unfortunate for this date is intimately tied to the natural evolution of our planet and all life on her. This evolutionary moment is called the time of Ascension. It is something we humans have been waiting for, for a very, very long time. It is none other than the completion of a promise to rescue the lost souls of Tara that have been trapped in this 1st Harmonic Universe (what we here refer to as the 1st, 2nd and 3rd dimensions) for over 550 million years. The historical event which lead us to this entrapment has come to be known as the “fall of man”.


Some believe ascension is simply something fancy-full, only to be found in the entertaining realm of science fiction or fantasy novels and not something to be considered seriously. Other use the term when referring to the attainment of lofty positions of power as in kings or pharos ascending to the throne. It is all these but it is also so much more. There is a science to ascension. A science that is currently not acknowledge by our scientists of today. Not yet anyway. It is a science with specific mechanics that allow for the evolution of consciousness from simple to more complex forms. A science that follows a path of order where-by consciousness itself evolves naturally through a structured multi dimensional system.

Now. Within this event called ascension, certain planetary physics must be met before the ascension process can occur. A Stellar Activation Cycle or “SAC” must occur before certain passage ways can be opened. These  original primary “passage ways” are called the Amenti Star Gates of which there are twelve on the surface of our planet. The Amenti Star Gates are scheduled to open on or about this infamous date of December 21, 2012 and will remain open for a cycle of 10 years from 2012 to 2022. During this 10 year cycle, ascension becomes available to the masses whose DNA has been activated high enough to allow for star gate transit.


The Pleiades Star system with Alcyone, the central star seen as the largest star in the center.

There is a considerable amount of information regarding the mechanics of ascension and how the blending of dimensions occurs involving Earths movement into alignment with her 5th dimensional counter part Tara. Some of which I will explore in future blogs.

Ascension becomes available to the masses only once every 26,556 years. A 26,556 year cycle is called a Euiago cycle which is the number of years our sun takes to complete one orbit around its’ central Sun, Alcyone in the Pleiadian star system.

Our earth has not seen a “SAC” in over 8 Euiago cycles or for more than 210,216 years. In fact, as the 3rd seeding of the human angelic race on our planet only began approximately 75,000 years ago, you could say that this is the first time our human race will experience an actual ascension cycle!


Extra Terrestrials or ETs have been with us every inch of the way. There are many Extra Terrestrial races that have always respected and embraced the divine heritage and mission of the Angelic Human species and have been acting as Guardians though out our long mission of re-claiming our angelic heritage which was lost in that ancient event called the “fall of man”. Our planet with its abnormal 23.5 degree tilt to the solar ecliptic plane and, in addition to this, our meandering magnetic pole structure would never have allowed a “SAC” to occur as the dimensional frequencies 4 though 9, which must be downsteped through the Sun, and these dimensions’ accompanying Stellar Wave Infusions would never have lined up properly with our planets’ tiled star gate system. Our guardian friends have done much to assist us in increasing our planets merkaba spin ratio, seen by some as the recent increase in our planets “Schumann Resonance”. They have been very active in redirecting these energies and the accompanying stellar wave infusions so that a stellar activation cycle could finally begin in January 2,000 and once begun, maintain the balance of our planetary shields during the “SAC” in order to prevent pole shift from occurring. Without our benevolent ET brethren we would never have made it this far. The “SAC” would never have begun and the human race would have been sentenced to yet another Euiago cycle; trapped in the 3rd dimension within the 1st Harmonic Universe for another 26,556 years.

So we have much to be thankful for with our ET friends for they have assisted us behind the scenes in helping to preparing our species and our beloved planet  for this glorious opportunity to once and for all time, heal what was broken so long ago.

Much of this material has been taken from a vast and growing body of knowledge called the Freedom Teachings as scribed by Ashayan Deane through the Guardian Alliance. And although these teachings are currently considered theoretical in nature, a thorough studying of this material just might convince you otherwise…


December 17, 2010